Utterly...

When you are Down and you will find god...

I don't believe in this kind of friendship, I never will...
people use people, and you call that friends...

Why people don't change?
They dont see things the way you see things,
People are different, that makes the world happening...

you never know what is going on...
cause I don't...

Hello buddy...

It's fyp...
The final year project...
I'm working hard for you...

Hello Buddy,
Hello Pals,
Hello Brothers,
I miss you guys...

I looking forward to go Ben house and try his PS3...
I miss that laughter...
I looking forward to that day we will meet one another in the court...
Just to play our favourite sport...
I meet you guys soon...
That day will be coming soon...

Bite on:D buddy!

I'm supposed to be stress...

I'm supposed to be stress but...

I'M NOT!

anyway,ya I'm scare but I'm facing it...
I want to have the "I want to do it" feeling...

My Birthday was happening...:D

My birthday was happening...

I was tied up, attack by fruits rolling down a slope and hit my vital part...
Tied up on a tree and PID PEOPLE START THROWING WATER BOMB,EGGS,CREAM and SOFT DRINK...

And I have two cakes smashed on my faces, One full of cream while another one was a small cute cake...





I smell like a cake...:D
And they make a video for me, it's on the facebook called Dougmance...
It's very funny, but it's not how I behave...

Thanks you Pid people alot who celebrate my birthday so violently...

90% Happy but 10% upset...
Is like waiting outside the line...
You got the feeling sometimes...
Haha!

I'm supposed to...

Well, today I went to eat breakfast with my family cause it's my mum birthday...
And I went out this afternoon with a friend...

I was quite happy with that outing because it wasn't that awkward than I expected...

Well, I'm supposed to update my blog...
But, I just have all the details written in my heart and my mind...

I guess, this space of mine doesn't belongs to me anymore...

Sometimes, I love too much...
Sometimes, I wasn't myself...
Sometimes, I wasn't there when I need you...
Sometimes, I want to be there when you don't need me...
Sometimes, I'm just crazily overated...
And sometimes, I just sometimes:D

How clear am I?

Is like,
The clothes got stain with black paint and I can't get rid of that ink...

Is like,
I know I was wrong and I admitted it and took the blame...

But is like,
sometimes,
I just don't understand...
Maybe I won't understand,
I dont want to understand...

It's your impression about me,
It's yours,
Not mine...

I could only say that I'm tired of this...

Hmmm,
What am I thinking?



If I know you better,
Maybe I look into it...

I think it's true!

Cute song!

"Never shout never,can't stand it"

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know...
That everything you do,
Is super duper cute
And I can't stand it...

Nanananananananana!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT...



it's 5.15am now and i'm just done with my report it's only part 1...
Texture tomorrow... I LOVE YOU! NA NA NA!

I just decided,
to start chasing...

It's saved as draft...

I typed a message for you,
And it's saved as a draft...
I didn't send it out...



my message to you was,

"Please take good care of yourself..."

I dont know why am i so bother about it, but I felt uneasy about it...
Anyway, it's your choice,
I can't stop you!

But I dont agree with what you are doing...I just don't like the habit...

My saving money plan!:D
is not working :(

I'm fight for you,HAPPY!

it's doesn't work well for me recently...
What's wrong...?

It's just came altogether...

One happy story versus all the negative words...

Happy is always standing alone, but it's in me...

Feel like a worm...

PROJECT...
I am really confused by you,
You turn me and twist me round and round,
Up and down, Front and back...

I'm confused...

Sometimes,
Things happened and you dont have a choice but to take it...
No matter how much you don't like it,
You still have to take them all in...

Do you know,
I wanted to do something about this tiredness...
Trying ways to stop the eyes from closing...
OPEN MY EYES,PLEASE!

How random,
It does not have a meaning ...

Dont really like to express on blogs,
Cause I think it's rather fake?

HAHA!

Get a book and write them down...
Get a sketchpad and draw them out...

BLOG... Random...



Dear hair, I miss you and I miss you alot...

Difficult

It's hard to make a decision...
It's difficult to understand...

I wish it didn't happened...

and Now it's 2.16am, I want to disturb you...
But it's just so random...

You are falling in love,
But I'm falling for you...

Logic versus feelings, How do you deal with it?

Fun.smile.laugh.

I foresee...

Part 1:

The problem in that relationship, I could foresee it...
But Without trying it out, how could I just predict...

You never know till you try...


Dont dream just do...

When it touches...

1.Just me with the pen and paper,
I start all over again...

My paper is blank now...

2.The word, "Faith" and "Believe"

I felt happy but yet I'm afraid that I won't be able to achieve that "expectation"...

Fear but yet, I'm glad...
It's being a long time since I felt this way...

3.My Analysis...
(I just want to remember, it wasn't sad,it's just the differences)

The story goes:
He kept on going till he reach you one day,
and he made it...

I asked myself: "How many times of rejection did he go through?"
And I answered: " probably More than five times, But he just kept on going"

"I didn't get rejected, But I didn't kept going on cause I know I will get rejected..."
Because I didn't want to get hurt, I just let it go...

I kept silent and just wait...
That's my difference...

Keep going and make things happened,
Don't just sit there and wait...

Swollen heavy eyes shutting down...

I'm waiting outside the line...

And surprisingly, I started to realise it's more complicated than what I expected...
If I had you, the first thing I'm gonna do, is to shut off your laptop...

It feels like a drama,
It is a drama
Yawning...

Did you know, I could only sigh...

Do you know?

I really wanted to make things right...
I'm just trying so hard to be true,
I Really want to be true to people...

But I think I screw everything up...

Trying to fix things up but instead it became worst...

Everything happened because of me,
I shouldn't have let that happened...

But, it's already done,
There is no reverse button to reverse what have happened...

I have no control of it,
I lose the control...

I'm guilty about it,
I'm truly am...

There's nothing much left for me to explain...
Whatever I say,
It just can't be undone,
So just let it be...

Feel like writing a song and played it on a piano...
Then I start singing on an empty stage, without any audiences...

"I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream."

Nothing but a dream...

My superhero:D

I love my spiderman...
How awesome!

I care cause I'm concern...
Is it too much, to let me know?

Hello Strangers!

HELLO STRANGERS:D

Well, I dont know why...
But it's seem that everyone is changing..

Now everyone became so strange to me...
They behave weird,
AND
not the right way...

Just so weird and strange to me...
@#$%^&*(

what's going on!?



Everybody is changing, and I feel the same HAHAHA!

Dont feel lost my friend, I'll here HAHA!
CHEERS!

halfway,it just stopped...

I dont know will you read this,
But I just want you to know,
I'm trying hard to get your respond...

My Conversation with you was weird,
maybe I'm pushing it too hard...

Sometimes, I want to give up because of the respond I get...
But sometimes, I dont want to...

I'm staying overnight to get some overnight ideas with some beers arounds...

Busy,broke and not interested...
and I ask...

At least I tried,
I think should stop it...

Afterall it's just a dream...
Ok, BYEBYE!

I dont understand...

This morning I saw this girl in the canteen...
That reminds me of what happened in Mexico...

The story goes like this,
First,she say she like me,
Then the next thing,she got herself a boyfriend...

Darn,I felt really bad to laugh...
but Maybe she fell for his heart...

She's just behave so weird when she saw me,
Her handshake wasn't firm and with her eyes contact...
It's just tells me all...

I dont understand,
But I know I won't...

Goodbye and have fun!

I'm spilling out nonsense,
I'm darn tired...

O,DISTURB DISTURB!

O,someone tell me,
How many times do you need to fall in love,
just to realise that the person is the right one for you...

O,and I tried talking today,
The respond was FTTM...
Failed to the max...

Dear Letter, I want my name in...

1: I'll clear things up :D

Simply put it as,
The Douglas you know now,
is different from three months ago...

FOR YOU TWO, HAPPY TOGETHER:D LOVE DEEP DEEP
HAHA!

Dont worry, I'm not him! :D

2:Anonymous(TOP SECRET) My little overwhelming tiny weird feelings...

My dream makes me want to think about you more...
My feelings seem to get really out of control...
It's like crazily falling in,
I can't say love,
I dont want to say like,
But ya, I did have something on...

Reading a letter from a post...
Hmmm, I dont know you...
I want to put my name in can...?

Can I?

Just can't stop myself from thinking how to irritate you and how I can disturb you...
Till you get so pissed off and start smacking me...

I dont mind being whack by you...

Like a child,
I just want to roll on the floor around you while you are busy doing your work...

Busy busy that's what you say...

I'll be waiting, until that one day you'll be free to talk to me...
Or you can simply just put me by your side and stuff a bun in my mouth but my hands will still move freely and start my nonsense...

I'm an attention seeker,
But I seem to be seeking for you,only...

"Waiting Outside the Lines"
Staring at the window, I wonder if it's you...

O...I was lively when I woke up...

O,I failed my Napfra but I feel like going in two months earlier,
O, then I feel like retaking it again...
O,I'm confused but yet surprise I could do some stuff that I thought I wont be able to...

O,I think I'm kinda of lost now because of the time and the place and my mind it's doesn't feel like I'm in the right place...

O,I'm like looking for time but I'm really tired and I'm busy with things that does not really related to me...

O,I was happily out of love again last night...
O, dont ask me why, cause I'm happy for her, that's all...

But,
O,I have a very weird dream last night that make me smile the whole day today...

O, and in that dream I was with a girl and everything was so happening...
(this girl are somehow different in her way, come to think about it's quite different but sadly i'm not close with her at all..)

O,and in that dream,
She likes me and I like her and it so nice in the dream...
Like drama, but it just feel so awesome!
I seem to understand her that much...

We hold hands, and ...
the alarm rang!

I'm super late and I was smiling:D

I was lively when I woke up...
Just so lively...

Maybe only my dream are beautiful...
but I really want them to be real somehow:D

Looking into the mirror...

In that mirror,I don't see myself...

Sometimes, the fear of rejection was so damaging that you couldn't see what you really want...

Even when you want it,
You just somehow fear of it...

It makes you so scared you just keep predicting the negatives and keep pretending...

Without even going for it,
you just keep running away from it...

probably, all i want,























is to face you...


HAHAHHAHAHAWAHAHAHAHWHAHAHAHAHA...
Eyes closing...

it's the word if...

Well, today I wasn't feeling well at all but I still went to my cell leader wedding with Marcus and Si hui...

Marcus and I was like the road Marshall to guide the guest to car park place...
The main point is we are under the sun or I would call it under the haze...
The weather was really bad,
it's like making me breathless...



HOWEVER WE GOT PAID:D with the hongbao my cell leader gave...
Not bad:D

It was really an eye opening event,
because I have never attend any christian wedding before...

I was kinda inspired by my cell leader when he plays the piano...

OK! I'm so gonna play a song and sing to the person that I like next time and I gonna play it for her when I married her...

First song,
First piano playing,
And my first wife:D
( I was just dreaming)

"Marriage is an exciting process..."
But preparing it was kinda of chaotic...

My gastric pain haven't really recovered,
so the food was not successfully digest or it didn't even went into my stomach...
I throw out the food when I reach home,
I forced it out...
HAHA...

Four times in a row and then I feel better,
But now,my stomach is bloated...

Oooo, I felt darn sick...
Ever since I came back from Mexico...

First, it started with my head...
It keep spinning and last for a week,
And without knowing that chili can do such a damage to my gastric,
Now I'm so unfit now...

Physically unfit...
with the body now,
I think my NAPFA is not looking good at all...

Tomorrow will be happening at my house,
But i'm not looking forward to it...
CAUSE IT'S THEM! X.X

The food will be placed just outside my corridor tomorrow,
But I can't eat...

my little thoughts about Journal,

It all started with a book,
with many many words inside it...
That why it's mysterious and it leads to many answer...

the chili spicy spicy,burn my stomach...

the three different thing...

1.just five spoon of tomyam soup,
I'm not okay!
cause it's too pain!

i'm now on my bed and i can hardly move...
ooo the song played,
"ooo,looked what you done..."
you darn chili!!
you spicy up my life!

2.things are done and better now,
probably i should let it go to make thing easier...

3.and the feeling of coziness:D

Kids Just dont...

If you have a girlfriend,
please don't shout at her...
It just show how awful you are...

And...


It's terrible...
EEEE...

It's simple...

Surprise visit to jamie house,






Ate and painted her brother's walls...




The feeling of chatting and cooking with "Auntie" is great!
It just bring the " IMISSMYAUNTIE" feeling back...
It's really fun and nice cooking with jamie's auntie :D
Ya, I still miss them alot,
and their chilis...T.T



I dont mind being judge by you,
I dont mind it at all...
Afterall, I just want you to know what going on, that's all...

I'm glad you know...


When I look at my past facebook picture,
It's the smile we used to have...

Like the song that keep playing over and over again,

" A simple thing, where have you gone?"

dozing off...

Things...

1. Don't really like rumours,
and I want to make clear with you and want you to know...

2. The unexplainable desire of wanting to know someone...
But it's just that close and like a song, so close but yet so far...

3. Looking into it, it's not that complicated...
We need a little more time and a little more patience with it...

4. Dont try to talk about the past to me,
Dont ever mention it...
Thanks for making so much mess for my parents...

Overall,
I'm open so dont just shut me off...

TIRED ARH!

The empty rooms...

Ever since I came back from Mexico,
My parent room is empty, and my room is always empty too...

Everyone were busy with their stuff and my hoildays is going to end...


I kept talking to myself,
For every single thought,
I asked myself and I reply to myself...

By the way,
I got a new phone,
It's smarter than me...:(

Here it goes again but I just want you to know!

I went dinner date with Leonard...
I forgot I have a date with him,
Sorry to cancel the movie and dinner date with you guys,
I sms you already! I GOT EXPLAIN! HAHA!

The Japanese fried rice,my appetite is back!

Black sesame paste, it taste like paste lor...

I don't know what I can blog about,
It's just too many things happening at the same time...

To you,I did my part...
But you can dont agree with my reason,
I agree with it...
I agree with it...

I don't have a phone that plays me a song...
But I play the music in my heart and it plays to my brain and then to my ears...
This is how it works...

but I dont want to lose this friend that helps me to check my essays and spot my grammar mistake...
I dont want to lose this friend that block my opponent from blocking me to the ring...
I dont want to lose this friend who I can smile and laugh without knowing why...
I dont want to lose this friend
I just dont want to...
Lose this friend...

I'm fine without my phone that doesn't play me any music,
But I'm not fine without this friend when we meet...

My name is Douglas,
And I want you to know...


Thanks for listening :D...
By the way,
Is it nesscary to buy Iphone?

OH MAN! I LOVE MY HAIR!

Opps,I forgot your smile

Today I woke up and recall what i did yesterday!
I forgot to smile, no wonder it was so awkward and my face looked so stiff...

WEBCAM~


Ok,Now I know it look scary!
Head back to bed:D

The whatever things, is gonna stopped!

YES!!
I FINALLY CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN!
Wasn't that bad right! HAHA!


My saxy hair... I LOVE IT:D I took it in Mexico!


The dessert I had with my poly peers,Today!...

Happy is a feeling that make you smile from the inside to the outside...
And then many wonderful things happened...

Don't make things seem so complicated...
If I have the control over it,
I didn't want things to happen like this too...

Oh, please nothing happened...

Maybe it make no differences...

Aiya, aiya...
Come to think about it,
Maybe you will just get so pissed off when I looked for you....

Come to think about it,
Maybe you won't even bothered to listen to what I'm gonna explain...
Maybe you will just walked off...
Maybe...

Aiya,
Can don't just walk away but listen to me,
can you just don't keep chanting the unholy words and let me finish my sentences to you,
Can you just be calm for that moment while logic makes sense to you...?

"Love is not about how long you stay with that person,
but it's how long you can make that person stay with you with that feeling...

When the feeling is gone,
You can tried to bring it back but you gonna tried even harder...

It's about her feeling..."

That's from my book :D



and many blogs were as usual like mine with deep deep thoughts and deep deep meaning...

Sometimes, I want to be there for you but it's the door you refused to open...
I dont have the keys to your doors and I could only knock to let you know that I'm there,just beside the door...




To a stranger:
I read many other people blog,
Only one was really funny and it's really lively reading it...
It does make my day,
somehow I dont really know you,
But it's really nice to know how you live each day...
How pancakes can become so important to you and stuff goes on without failing to make you smile...:D
One super duper cheerful stranger!

smile abit just a tiny little bit...

and i really dislike people who are not responible for their actions...
Why not you just go away! Stupid...

Three months, and I'm back...

This is not supposed to be a sad post,
But a happy post...

I am back home again...
YEAH!

But things got so different when I'm not around for this three months...
I got updates from others,
But what exactly happened is just not what is been updated...

I start to realise that Msn and facebook is not the real way to communicate...
It really break people apart...

Things that are important to me are breaking apart...
And I'm seem to be the root of it...

It's seem to be the way I handle things...

The white lies I made to protect it,
The white lies I used to save it...

Afterall, it's all lies that I made...
How to make you understand,
I did all this to keep the friendship we have...



I wish I could relate it to someone,
Guide me out please...
It's hurtful...

WAHAHAHAHA!

LU LU LU LU!

I was dead busy for the last 5 weeks...
2 more weeks’ ar... WAHAHAHA
And just realised that my blog was quite dead, so I’m making it alive again...
Actually, I want to say thank you guys, for spending time to read this blog to get my updates about me myself here.

It’s really sweet when they ask why you never updated your blog...
Thanks...

Today, it’s Friday and my 9th week here in Mexico...

Now, I’m using Microsoft word to update my blog post, because there is no internet in the place I’m living in...
I’m sitting in the dark living room. The lights in the living room were spoilt since the day I step into this house.
I could only rely on the kitchen’s light so it’s not totally dark in the living room.

Woah, time flies away from you when you are hardworking haha!

From the last five weeks, things happened...

There are good and bad things, But what the matters the most is, I learnt something out of here...

I’ve been quite childish in Mexico, as in more playful and more happening than I’m in Singapore...



Overly crazy


Someone to kiss,Please!


Extremely Bored...


My hair is getting longer...=D

PIGGY, BOO!!

In Singapore, I always look at work as my first priority.
When I’m in Mexico, the things that I used to have in Singapore, it wasn’t here...
For example, Internet access...

Internet was my daily routine to get updates, check mails, looking for research, chatting with friends on msn and playing games...

That was my routine... My daily routine...

My working place has internet access however I was required to produce work there and there is no need for me to use internet...

Although my boss did not restrict us from using the internet, our colleagues were there to look at what we are doing in the work place...

When I reach home in Mexico, there is nothing that I’m looking forward to...
Because life in Mexico is simple for me...

There is no internet at home; only television and the entire channel are in Spanish...

When we reach home, we cook, we eat, we wash dishes and we sleep...
I got used to it without internet...

And I got a hand phone that will never ring except in the morning which wakes me up for work...

For 2 months in Mexico, whenever I look at the phone, I was always wondering if there is someone in Singapore calling me...

Every single day, I hope my phone ring in Mexico...

I missed home, I missed my family, I missed my brothers, I missed my friends, I missed the FOOD AND I REALLY MISS YOU !!!

Almost every weeks I webcam my parent in the company, I could see them; I could hear them but I could not talk to respond their question, but could only type and reply them.

Hearing their voice through the earpieces was great... It really makes my day...
I realised that growing up is not just about being independent or being strong , by growing up, it means to love people who cares about you, your family and your friends...

There are many times that I was overly high and overly crazy haha...
I train for my upcoming napfra test at home.

There is one time when I ate two muffins before I train, I was really hungry and it tasted so yummy... I did multi sets of push- up and sit-up and moment later, I don’t feel well, and went straight to the toilet and thrown up the muffins.

It’s sounded stupid, but it’s really funny.
I did Jumping jack till my legs cramp.

I was so bored I made videos using my laptop and post it on Facebook... That was really extreme...
And the reason why I was bored was...

The Disappointing part that make me grow:

My working environment wasn’t that bad however when it comes to the weekends, no one bother to show us around Mexico.

It is very disappointing on how we are being treated here.

During the first few weekends, we were not brought out to see Mexico by our person in charge, with the reason that he was busy.

So we make our way to trip explore Mexico ourselves.

Our colleagues told us that it’s might not be safe to go Mexico City. However, during the weekends, they did not offer to bring us out either.
Our roommate brought us out to see a pyramid in Mexico city which is quite far from the city itself.


Eventually, on their independence day, their national day, it was a four days holiday including the weekends.

Despite of showing us around Mexico, we were treated like Mexican here. Our Person in charge have never once offered to bring us out of this town and expected us to know our way to the attraction places in Mexico.

Every morning when we on the TV, there will always be news reporting on killings on the street in town or city.

“4 men founded dead; Body hangs upside down with their dicks in their mouth.”
“Drug war: 4 men shot to death in Temixco” (this town is just miles away from our living place)

The killings are rather near to the main attraction places in Mexico.

Well, it’s easy for you guys to say you can travel out yourself without their help.
“You can check on the internet where to go and book a hotel and spend a few days there.”

First, the internet issues, we do not have internet at home and we are somehow being watched by people around us on what we were doing in the company.
We could not probably be using internet to check on the attraction places.

Second, we don’t speak Spanish. It’s hard to communicate. But the people are friendly, thanks god.

But still, we got so sick of this restriction and we make our trip to Mexico City ourselves to look at their attraction places. We simply give up hope on hoping anyone will bring us out anymore.

Thank god we are safe; thank god we have a good time.

We went to look for hotel and stay in for 3 days two nights.

We went to the museum, visit the pyramid within the city and brought souvenirs.
(Please really appreciate it, because it’s hard to get them)

We stick with the crowd and avoid deserted streets, we kept the wallet in the front pocket and we were always looking at each other’s back and getting ready to throw our bags and fight...

It might sound drama, but I find it pretty cool on how my course mate and I got look after one another.

We are brothers here because it’s just the two of us. We chat about everything here because that’s the only thing we could do during the night time.

Somehow these are the brick walls in Mexico I faced, eventually I learnt and overcome it.

I was angry because of the poor hospitality and the way we was treated here but afterwards, I got over it, because I can make it myself out despite the possible dangerous exposed to us.

I prayed that nothing will happen to us here and the Poland people who are definitely enjoying themselves now!

HAHA STAY SAFE THERE AND COME BACK WITH GIVE ME MY GIFTS, IF NOT I CURSED YOU GUYS! Haha just kidding k!

We get back safe, we will and I have to...
2 more weeks ar, 2 more weeks... WAHAHAHA

"Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall."

Haha, I found the quote from a very interesting friend =D



Just before I end this, I see changes in me...
I’m getting warmer...
Real warm...=D

To be continued...

Can you 安靜?

Another week with 2 months left...
Work,eat, bath then sleep...
This is what we do here...
Nothing much...

I got my pay this week, it's 1000 peso...
Woah, quite alot I think I think I can save some money...

Work:
Working on a mud guard for Volkswagen Truck (pickup)

Sketching and scanning the 3d surface on the laptop quite tedious because we need to paste sticker on the car surface before scanning it...

Excited and after pasting the stickers, it's tired...

Anyway, I somehow find joy in doing stuff, even in doing shit work...
Like cleaning the truck wheel...
Stain with muddy texture, which look like shit somehow...

My weekends:
Everyone is busy, and no one bring us out...
We have to plan our weekends to go out and explore the places...

They somehow treat us like we are the locals here...
HAHA...
Never mind, I plan my way out and enjoy my weekends...
It's boring this week end,
Hope we can get our ass out of the company on weekends...
Where are we going tomorrow!?

Last weekends:
Anyway Went to swim on last Sunday...
It's fun but it's expensive...
$17 dollars...


Pain in the gastric:
On Thursday,
Maybe I ate the wrong food or the chili is just so powerful,
I got gastric pain after that...

In pain during working time...
Ouch,
Ouuuucccch,
PPPain,
HHelp me,
i want to die,
Kill meeee...

I keep repeating this phase, until the pain just disappear...
and when I eat my dinner,
It happened again...

Lie on the bed after I ate the medicine, I farted all the way!
HAHA!
Smelly~
And then in the midnight,
My friend wake up to vomit and it's gastric problem I think...
Or maybe my fart too smelly...

Anyway, He didn't went to work on Friday...
I was lefted alone in the company...
Sketching alone...

Songs that keep me alive...

"Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go? So why don't we go?

Oh, this could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know"

Anyway thanks Stephanie for replying the email...
And thanks for the song...
It's emo!
HAHA I think sending email to people is quite fun,
Waiting for reply, then reply again...
You never know what is the next reply gonna be like!
Exciting I guess...



I was so crazy over this song...
Somehow it's the melody...
安靜

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

A place, where I start to realise...

Work:
Another week is gone...
It's pretty normal this week, as there is quite a lot of work to be done this week...
I did a mould for a cup holder...
And it took me one and a half day to finish it...
It's pretty exciting to do something that is going to be produce out by the company...
YAY!
But I was kinda of stress up because it's going to be produce out from the machine in the workshop so I cannot make any mistake on the mould...
Because one mould cost a bomb...

Now,I finally understand that it's never easy to do a rapid prototype
(Mass Production)...


It's maths, calculating the dimension just kills me...

The Locals:
Anyway, the people here are really friendly...

And on friday, it's their drinking day, where they go out and drink...
My course mate and I didn't follow them cause we just don't feel comfortable, I guess...

However, yesterday, things happened...

When we were asleep, my roommate who is a Mexican brought his friend back home...
All of them work for air design...

Our room door doesn't have a proper lock, so people can just bang in and say hi...
Well, they did...
And they keep asking us to drink with them...
One thing for sure was, they were all drunk...
It's their culture and it wasn't good to refuse them...
Just to make them leave, I drank half a bottle...
And they opened another bottle to my course mate...
Somehow drinking violate his religion rules, so I drank on his behalf...
One and a half bottle is nothing to some, but finishing up one and a half bottle is something for me when I keep drinking it fast into to my tummy...

And they lefted our room soon after I finish up my drink...
I was tired, and felt really disgusted by the beer...
Btw I hate beer for it's awful taste...
That make me wonder why people love beer so much... GOSH!...

Anyway, I almost puked because of the fast drinking...
And I have plastic bag beside my bed just in case...
HAHA! JOKE!
I'll be so dead next month cause I promised them I drink with them...

Popular in my race:
For some reason, I felt that I'm kinda of weirdo to them...
Because my course mate is a Malay and somehow they just treat him like a Mexican...
Well as for me...
Where ever place I go in Mexico, I was always looked at...
To the Mexican local here, I guess they have never see a Chinese guy before...
So I'm pretty weird to them...
Many thought I'm a Japanese, they just keep bowing their head down, and subconsciously I follow them too... Bowing and bowing...
Here, I learnt to smile at people who I don't know...
They simply smile back...
Somehow if I were to smile to someone in Singapore,
I don't think I will get any respond...
HAHA!

Well, it feel good when you smile at people, people smile back to you...
Anyway, I seem to be more attractive here in Mexico, cause I attract alot of attention from the girls here even in the company and the workshop...

COOL!FEEL LIKE A SUPERSTAR!


Dreaming:

This week, I keep dreaming...
Dreaming about people, that are close to me...
Dreaming about my family, my friends...
At least,it make me feel closer to home,
At least,it make me feel closer to people I loved and cared...
At least,I dont feel much alone anymore...

Although it's just a dream, it feel so real...
It got me so darn worried about people getting chicken pox...
Fear from my dream...

Everyday, We walk to work...
Everyday, When I reached home, I was like a man doing house chores...
Somehow, I'm getting used to it...
I won't say that I'm like a maid anymore...
It's man who do house chores,
It's me a man, who do house chores...=D
MAN!

8 more weeks to go...
I feel like a caterpillar morphing into a butterfly...
HAHAH!

Relationship, is getting scarier ...

Greeting from mexico =D
Currently, I'm still in the office using Internet.
So trying to get some updates done here...



Well, I'm doing fine here...
And start to feel like a designer here as well...

It's only been five days since I reached here,
I started to miss home...
Because everything here is so different from Singapore...
And I really need to adapt to the environment here.

I hope you guys learn to cherish what you have in Singapore,
Because,
Singapore is really great, although it's small, but it's really great...
You dont have to bath in the morning with cold water,
you dont have to get clear water from the convenient store...
Ya and everything is available in Singapore, you see...
So learn to cherish things there.

Everyday, I'm looking forward to work,
Because it's seem that I wanted time to fly as fast as possible...
It's going to be like three months in Mexico,
It's three months here...
I just realised it's quite a long period here...
I have the uncertain feeling,
It's not pleasant...

Maybe I'm just scared to be all alone here,
Everyone in Singapore, Having their sip and they share their thoughts with one another everyday through msn, through facebook...
Meet out for lunch, meet out for dinner, Meet out for movie...
Suddenly I just realised how much fun it would be in Singapore...

When I online at 7 am, it's 8 pm in Singapore,
the time different is 13 hours,
And I can't really get through the wireless here,
Sometime the internet work, sometime it don't...
It's seem that I'm really breaking away from Singapore...


I guess, it's really time to overcome this all by myself...

It's kinda of lonely here, although there is other course mate with me here, I just feel the same=/
HAHA! This time round, I admit I'm scared,
But I dont know what i'm scare of...
Really Hope I can get rid of this feeling...

Anyway, some thoughts about relationship in Mexico...
Well, I started to have alot of different thoughts here,
It's quite scary to get into relationship.
Love can be just a sudden feeling, maybe it's going to last for one months or maybe a year, and that it...
Break and people get hurt...
Is love something like that?
I find that it's really scary,

Like how people can just leave someone after years of relationship...
By saying, I no longer hold that feeling for you anymore, when the other partner is trying so hard to do whatever things to please the one he love...

I don't understand this at all...
Feeling is uncertain,
That what I can say...
I seen alot and I heard alot...

The impression of Relationship...
Afterall, Love is still wonderful, not all relationship is like this I hope...

A message to someone who won't know about this blog...

This time,
I have done wrong,
Sorry for being a jerk,
For doing so much as a friend...

I know how painful it is for you to go through this all alone,
Cause I have been through it before,
If I could take your pain away, I will take them all away...

Sorry, that is all I could say...

But I'm definitely not the right person for you...
Just never the right one for you...
I guess someone else would definitely be better than me...
I'm so sorry...
Please forgive me...

Farewell for three months, two months and three weeks...

Hey guys,
I'm flying off to Mexico for my internship for two months and three weeks,
Hmmm,
At first, When I was chosen for the Mexico Internship was damn Happy...
But when I'm about to fly off,
I did not get so excited over it...
But anyway,
I'm still going to fly off, ALONE to Mexico with 4 transit flight...
From Singapore to Japan, Japan to San Francisco, San Francisco to Mexico...
It's going to be 23 hr 44 mins flight...
GOOD LUCK TO MY BUTT...

Anyway,
I'm kinda of scared to be alone going off all by myself,
But I think it's going to be a very different kind of experience for me to grow up...
This time,
I'm going for three months,
I think I will change...
To be more independent,
More man=DD

By the way,
Take care guys,
I'll be fine there,
I hope I can learn a lot there,
And when I come back I'll be someone even better...
HAHA !