Purpose in life,
I guess I have found it...

ONE MORE THING,
LOVE IS CHANGING ME!

I WILL STILL BELIEVE TOMORROW...
IT"S WILL BE A BETTER DAY!

Her BROTHER,
Do things in a certain manner,
It's highly capable of completing each task given to him...
A LEADER,
A CAPABLE PERSON,
A HIGHLY DISCIPLINES PERSON...
NEVER STRESS...
IT'S SURPRISING...
GOD WAS THE KEY FOR HIS SUCCESS, This is what she told me...
As in he was blessed with strength of god,
Using this strength to overcome obstacles and difficult times...
In work,
In relationship...
SUPER SURPRISING!
AWESOME...

YEAH MAN!
I GONNA BE JUST LIKE HIM!
SO,
BLESS ME WITH YOUR STRENGTH...

I PUT IT IN A GOOD USE!

MY Physical training is paying off,
My Determination,
My Endurance,
My Strength,
My Beliefs,
Is making me stronger...
Stronger to protect people I cherish...

People showing me attitudes,
I Accept it...
I'll never go against you,
Anger or hatred,
I choose LOVE TO REPLACE THEM ALL...
I FORGIVE
CAUSE I WANT TO BE MATURE...
:D

LIST TO DO:
Learn to accept people weakness...
Understand how they feel...?
Forgive them...
Earn respect not hatred...
Strength to protect,not to fight...
Learn to smile then to be sad...
Tried harder but not giving up...

THINGS THAT I NEED TO ACHIEVED...

BELIEVE IN MY STRENGTH...


























The urge is getting stronger...

She gave me a something sweet...

THANK YOU!

Mum say her condition....



BUT I STILL BELIEVE SHE WILL BE FINE TOMORROW!

SHE WILL BE FINE!



It's hard to explain how you feel when you fall in love at the wrong time...

But maybe I do not have my conculsion on whether do i really like or love?

I'm confused by that feeling...

It's not a Pleasant feeling,
But I feel good sometimes...

It's more like I'm getting angry over things when i dont get to talk to her...

STUPID...

Arrrrh!



MORE MATURE PLEASE....

Let things Flow in it's way,

But eventually,

I keep cutting in the flow...

I NEED SOME PEACE PLEASE...

























The waterfall of peaces...










HOWEVER STILL, TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY...

SHE WOKE UP!
WOKE UP!

I BELIEVE A BETTER TOMORROW! YEAH!

I'm starting to get addicted to you,

The urge are getting stronger...

I know,
It's not a good sign,

But I'm felt comfortable and good with your Presences,
It's just the feeling that I felt...
So soft,
So light,
So carefree...
That what I felt,
And I like it...




Maybe they send you here too...




















She's in coma,
Stop SLEEPING,
WAKE UP!

Praying for a better tomorrow...

I know they are coming for me...

In the lesson today,
I feared that my mum will call,
I feared that it's about aunt,
I feared that it's over,
I feared them coming,
I'm really scared...
But Things are better at the afternoon,
I can sense the warmth when I think of it,
Is it real?
It's a Powerful aura,
But it was gone afterwards...
I Flood myself with work,
So I can stop thinking of it...

Then walked to the bus stop with friends,
With really funny jokes they made...
Yeah,
Looking positive at that moment,

But just that moment when my parent came back...
With that swollen eyes of my mum,
I guess it has worsen...

I'm losing my Sleep,
I'm losing my appetites,
I'm losing my faith,
I'm losing my mind,
I'm losing my tears,
I'm losing it,
I'm losing myself...

Can you hear me?
Are you with me ?

Things that you see in me was right,
I'm sorry,
I refused to share my problem with you...
I didn't want you to worry...
I know it's your friend concern,
I understand it...
It's all FRIEND Concern...
But I don't want to have the repeated story happening on me again...
Maybe you have found this blog,
Or maybe not,
Like what you say,
Life is good,
Do smile...
I seem to get it,
Maybe it's all a mistake that I have made from the very beginning...

I'm lost in this situation,

Somehow a voice came to me in my mind cheering me to fight on...

I sense my brothers presences,
I heard their voices,
It's coming with that force...

My Training make me pick up myself when I fall...

It's not done for FUN...

They keep coming for me...

A price that I have paid for these lesson was my own laughter...

When my grandparents went off,
All in the same year 2007,
But with different timing,
A total of three,
Together...
Well, It's three...

One grandfather, two grandmother...

Misery,Sadness,Sorrow...
Well, these three fellows came along into my life,
To let me experiences the pain of losing person I Loved...

I have been through the dark forest,
The World of Black and White,
Numbest room...
Pain dimension,
I've went through all of them...
Each time,
I went through this shit alone,
I Learnt a lesson...

I realised that I have to really cherish people around me...
People that I loved,
People who loved me,
My Family and Friends...
So I work harder to earn back my laughter back,
No matter how hard it was...
Even having trouble on schoolwork,
Classmates which discriminated against me,
Parents scolding me about chores undone,
Well it's not undone,
It's done but it's not nicely done...

Despite of all this situation,
I didn't feel Lost,
Cause I have an aim to Be happy...
I smile at them,
When they scold me,
I smile at them,
Even though I know they are saying me in my back,
I will still smile at them,
I take everything on me...

I need to change for you,
I know it's gonna be hard,
But I'll still change it for you...

So that you can see the real smile on my face...

THE SMILE ON MY FACE! =)


HAHA...
Ha...Ha...
Ha haha...h...a..ha..h..a....




























In the time,
When I make up my mind to have my laughter back,

These news came along,
They broke through the door,
Without warning,
They came...
And here they are...

Yesterday,
My mum told me that my First aunt(Her elder Sister) was admitted to hopsital...
What can I say?
It's A bad news?
Her condition wasn't that good?
Tell me how?
How to feel?
How to react?
How to How?
Why?

And I went down to have my lunch at the coffeeshop,
Dad reminds me of Granduncle,
His situation was worser?
He was skinny,
As skinny like a Prisoner of war...
Bone was what I see in him...

I see life,
Life,
Life,
Life...

Willl You Know how I feel,
When they keep coming for me?















Will You...?