Stay strong with the pillar...

Cause it's not leaving you...

It's a good night...

1.I spend like hours looking for it and I still couldn't find it darn...

2.It's kinda of irritating when you ask someone about stuff and they don't give you the direct answer...

3.This Wednesday is fucked up...

4.I love running under the sun... I loved tanned skin...

5.I start to feel strong in my physical body...
Meanwhile, Half of my mental know what it is doing but the other was in a mess...

6. Confinement make me miss you more, and it make me cherish the time with you...

7.I wasn't a good boyfriend material, But I'm trying to change though...

8.I was wondering what She was thinking when she post that quotes...

9.I really wished a High ranking officer would shout at my face and SHOUTED,
" REC DOUGLAS LIM, YOU BETTER FUCKING WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA!"
Cause I think it will motivate me to push myself even more...

10. My craziest idea was to run so hard till I vomit white bubble...

Her mind is always running...

Two weeks of confinement,
How much have I wished that you have more to say to me...
But it turned out to be the other way...

I tried to be frank,
I tried to heartless,
and I tried ask you back...

Things doesn't change at all,
but yet I'm still biting on to it...

Tough personality,
Tough habits that is hard to change,
Most of it was what I dislike...

I wish things doesn't revolve with money...
It's about the feeling that I had for you...

Am I being appreciated?
I always have to go through this fucking feeling, like literally...

If caging works,
but I know it won't...

Day by day,
Everyday,
my life get better and better,
and Nothing really matters...

Aching and sorrow...

Eh,
Why do I have to deal it alone ?
Why do I still hold up to that feeling?
Till the end, Why is this happening?

Wtf?

It's non-sense...

I wasn't being honest to myself,
and the thought for you has no return...

But yet again,
I always went in...

You think for yourself,
but for me, where were those thoughts...

Don't be too nice,
Just felt manipulate,
or probably I was only a shadow...

Yourself, yourself and only yourself...

Good intention, came with non-sense outcome...
It always goes on repeating by itself...
Because there is no changes...

Dear god, please made a change...
Please made a good change...

Just take me and go...

It feels the things that I used to revolve around had just shown me that I wasn't really being appreciated...
Then the word, Understanding just came in...

I'm always being understanding,
But they dont...

That feeling was sick enough...

Understanding,
Well,
Eat shit and die,
but I still do it...

But this time,
to the right person...

I dont think anyone understand...

I made a vow,
that I shall know my limits on alcohol...

I hate that feeling of being drunk, that intensive feeling of vomiting...

I had enough...

I kept having that hope,
I should stop having that...

Your words,
Your feelings,
I had already knew it,
but why I kept falling in...
I had enough...

I guess my life was screwed up,
and I have to get them right...

I have to learn to fight back,
or simply just learn to leave things that doesn't belongs to me...

Passion, my reality...

I have deep passion for design,

Thinking of the problem,
Looking at the solutions,
Proposing...

Sketching...
I love sketching alot,
and I simply love looking at them and they make my heart beat faster...
I was simply in love with sketches, pencils, markers and things that make a sketch...

Caid was a nightmare,
But I enjoy the process,
Creating layers, surfaces and coming to the ending,
comes the rendering...
Doing animation was even the fun things that I love to do the most...

There are more that I missed...

Designing is a tiring things,
It takes alot of work,time and brain cell...
But it's my passion that I felt it's worthwhile...

The fact is,
As a designer, we might not get well-paid off...
The task that we do,
I felt that we deserve better,
but we are not...

Sad to say,
I have a family that I have to take care of,
It's the responbility, that I have to take...

Dear design, What should I do...
I love you,
But I just can't let you go...

O, please tell me how...