I need to stay awake...

I have to blog in order to keep myself awake now...
My head is killing me...
and people voice just made me feel irritated because of this headache...
I'm drinking white coffee to keep myself awake tonight...
I have to finish my Pboard by tonight...

Gosh,
I'm slacking...
And Gosh, I'm feeling weird...

Anyway, I felt rather guilty this week...
Good and bad,
for many things i have done...
and the way how people treats me now...

Like so different,
or maybe it's the same...

I kept them in,
Maybe they are feeling stress...

After being in school for like three years,
I somehow came to realise the cruelty or in fact reality of this world...

Have you ever thought of this question,
Are you in a friendship or are you simply being used by your so called "FRIENDS" who used to be closed to you?

Now I came to realise,
Or rather I woke up,
realising that I had been used by my "FRIENDS"...
I had been used...

I'm really pathetic...
Pathetic...

While some stood by me,
I appreciate that alot...

I remember and when your time come,
I will stood by you guys too...

I felt that I learnt something from this Fyp,
Was never to say give up that easily,
How imperfect your design is,
there was never prefect design in these world afterall...

Ya, the reality still hits me hard,
But at least I'm glad, all by myself...

Thinking about how a close friend start to make a wide distance away from you...
How does it feel?
Utterly awful...
Recently, it just keep happening...
I'm feeling kind of lazy of pulling the wide distance closer...

Maybe, I shouldn't have asked...
When I want to know the truth,
I was hoping that you will be true to yourself...
Maybe it's easier to let yourself go...

But I was wrong,
Maybe at the starting I shouldn't have think so much,

I've been through all this shit,
that I dont want you to get any of them,
But I just can't stop how that feeling going through you now...
Cause no one can...

Now,I end up hurting you inside and out...
Only god knows,How much I hate this situation now,
But I hope time heals you...

Busy liao...! BYEBYE!