Undergoing

I'm undergoing a series of thoughts about what happens now and what happens in the future...
I'm quite sure no one will understand how I feel right now...
Cause I'm too tired to share this piece of thoughts...

Being open about your thoughts doesn't mind that people will understand you...
I'm now in the position of waiting I guess...

If you say goodbye,
The one who get hurt will be the both of us...
At least I know you wont be as affected as me...
I do wish that everything will be good for you...

I'm FREAKING TIRED, and the thoughts just ran through my mind,
What I expect from this whole thing wasn't what I want,
It was the unwanted...

What matters?

I just keep mumbling inside my heart...
I'm mumbling...

I need a guide book...
I need your guide book...
Ohh, guide book...

I think I sniff too much paint,
My nose hurts to the extreme now...

I never want it to end it...Neither do i want it to happen...

Maybe It's broken...
This week people relationship breaks apart...
Maybe it hard for you guys,
But it's painful for me to see them quarreling...
It's even harder to accept that we might choose to go out separate way...

Sometime, I just wish I have the control to stop it...

Hope you are better off...
I tried, but i failed to make it better...
Now it's seem to be like a jerk...
Probably someday when you woke up, I hope you realised it...
sometimes, it's really true to be friends that being couples...
cause it's never easy maintaining it...

How much longer?
Sometimes, The lock does not open ...
Deep down in you, the thoughts that run through,
it's too far away from what I can reach for...
Probably time would let me find that key to unlock it...

But when the time comes,
Where will I be?

It's about you...

I mark the starting,
and he'll mark our ending...

We were getting closer each day,
But,
I know we will leave each other soon enough...

I hold you close but,
You are running away...

I'm losing myself,
I'm tired,
and gradually I'm losing you...

Maybe it's too late...

Sometimes, I'm struck by thinking of what you told me,
What you say...
Your body language...

I'm ______ to fall deep now,
And I'm pushing myself back...
if one day you ______,
At least it won't be that ______ to me...

Maybe it's the starting but it seem to be alittle abnormal...

I became even empty when I listen to Click Five" Empty"...

These lyrics, just bring a message...

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts

It takes two...
Not one...