Went to cell retreat on saturday,
and everyone of us is there...
Fun and enjoyable...
HAHA!
Got tribe meeting then went to ecp for cell retreat!
OK! so the things ended at 4.30 i think
Reach home at 5am...

Anyway,
important thing in cell retreat is that,
Love your enemies,
Love your neighbour was like being emphasised,

Huburt share the same problem with me...
I thought I have overcame this test that god put me in,
But i just realised that I was just running away,
The holy spirit in me,
Just tell me that I never love my enemies before,
nonetheless forgive them,
For the things that they do to me...
but running away from them,
not facing them...

In conclusion,
I haven't pass my test yet...
It's lies that I told myself,
that i have forgiven but i didn't...

Like kinda of dissappointed...
Cause I really really dont want to face it...
I dont know how to...
But my cell leader say,
Have faith in god cause he will lead you to a path and teach me how...

Ya,
I could only have faith now and wait for this test to come...
And Face it again...




Then Sometimes,
I feel kinda of regret on the things that I do...
Things that I promise myself to do,
I'm just like yes I'll do it...
But months later,
I just couldn't keep my own promise...

Maybe as it goes with the time,
It will just fade away,
But one thing for sure,
it's always there in this heart of mine...

Sorry that I couldn't keep the promise I made,
somehow it just a message from me...
It's not for you,
But me...
Just me...