Hmmm,
Well, times flies and there goes this week...
Also dont know what to type...

I'm like quite quiet recently,
Not because I emo,
Just feel kinda of tired...
And I dont really have much to say also...

hmmm...
Updated soon...

Went to checkup today,
And the doctor say that everything is OK...
Normal,
It's just an infectation maybe is because i hold my bladder too long or never drink enough water...
So everything is Prefectly ALRIGHT NOW...

OFFICIALLY Fallen asleep today...
And I refused to wake up and do my work...
This sleep is like so nice...=D
And I love sleeping =D

Eh EH Eh EH ...

I want to talk haha!
Listen to me!...

Electrolux over...
Life still the same...
Kinda of sad to depart from the team...
Goodbye and good luck...

Now busy liao...
Sleeping time is from 3 to 8
If this carry on...
WOOHOO!
I'm so going to be like pig on the weekends...

AND IT KEEP RAINING AND RAINING
I want to play basketball...@#$%^&

I got alot of inspiration...
And alot of small little things havent do yet...

there will always be up and down in life...
And i'm the one who control who i want to be...
So i want to be...
SOMEONE who control his life HAHA!

I miss my sleep just for ben birthday...
Eh see how good I am...
I can choice not to go...
But too bad who ask him to be my brother...
So must go what...

HAHA HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SUCKER...
HAHA...

And I'm having trouble with my head now...
I'm not having a good appetite recently,
Feel kinda of sick...


This week start of new module...
Alot of things to do...
Always the same thing...

Anyway I found something important in my life...
Health is blissful...
This is what i learnt from A litre of tear...
If one day I can no longer play basketball...
Hmmm Just like that...
Life just so unexpected...
Scary...

So ya...
See alot of things...
Just wanna be me...

Step by step...
Then we'll reach it...
That's my philosophy =D
I finally got my PHILOSOPHY...
OH YA!

Alot of things coming through...

Hmmm today...
Wake up at 11 and wanted to go school to help out,
and I remember what she say yesterday,
And i told myself:
"You mei you wo, ye bu shi yi yang...?"
I wont disappointed...

A Litre of tear,
Each episode make me feel so sad,
At episode 6 3/4 Makes me cried...
So touch-ing...

Get a new laptop just to install this stupid design software Alias...

I know it's quite stupid to get a laptop now when there is a IT fair coming in two weeks later...
Can get better spec can get it in a better price...
But i just need it...

But my modules start next week and i believe this modules will really rely on the laptop or computer graphics...
My school is going to upgrade the Com...

Hmmm why dont use school com?
Alot of reason,
but the most important reason is to let other people to use...=D

Anyway MIRACLE HAPPENED!!!

After hunting so long for this new laptop and it's window 7
I thought the software can be installed and function well...
But i was wrong...
It's 7 going to 8 and my parents went out for dinner and i told them i catch up with them in 20mins time...
Getting so nervous just hope that it will work well you see...
My mum spent 2k+ just to buy this laptop to help me in my work...
And if this software cant be installed,
I'm so dead...

And it really didn't worked...
I installing for the first time and a screen pop out...
And the screen hang there...
For quite long...
I thought it was loading...
And i waited...
Something is wrong when there is words which is supposed to appear just below the pop out screen but it didnt appear...
And the screen just hang there...
So I went to the task bar and end task for the screen pop out...
And I reopen it four times...

I told myself...
Die liao...
And I pray :"man, god help me please... Please make it work.."

And it was like 8.30...
I'm so worried...
And the thing still hang there...
So i tried restarting the com...
And reopen it...
It didnt work...

And half of my soul was gone...
$2k+ just gone if this software cant be installed...
And how my family is going to react went I tell them that it wont work...
I think i'm so dead by that time...

And it's getting late...
So i rush down to the hawker centre to meet them up for dinner...
Think and think and think...
"Please make it work..."

I keep chewing the chicken wing...
One by one...
I didnt told them that it might not work,
and kept it to myself...
I think that,that is the time when I really control my emotion so well that my parent didnt notice that I'm SO FREAKING WORRIED...
Cause the whole table is full of food =D

I went to call a friend who i took the software from, he say he's not sure whether the software will work on window 7 anot...
Cause it work well on window vista and window xp...
If it dont work,
Die liao...

Went to aunt house to take the Microsoft software and rush home...
On my way home,(it quite near) just one street away...
I walked under the rain and prayed...

"Father please make it work,
I'm desperately calling for you...
Please make it work..."

Deep in my heart, I shout it out loud...
And keep on repeating the same thing over and over again...

And went home...
Reinstall the software again...
And it didn't work...

I almost throw my temper when they keep asking whether the software is it working on the laptop...
I need some time to install so please wait...
I come back to you later...

Fear all over...
Panic...

Thinking of downloading window vista to replace window 7...
Thinking of downgrading window 7...
Just feel so angry...
Why am i always being played...
All i want was to get things done and well done...
Please dont fool me like this...

And MIRACLE HAPPENED...
I wanted to remove the software from program...

It show me three main title:

Program and features
Default program
and desktop gadgets

And God make me see the feature under Program and features
Run programs made for previous versions of windows
So i click it...
First it didnt have any programs that is run under previous versions of windows which is window vista...

And when it came to an end,
A list of program pop out and asked me to select program i want to run under previous of windows...
So I selected the software...

screen pop out words under the screen start to appear and "starting application"...

=D And it worked...

I close my eyes and say thank you father when my dad was actually just beside me...
And i knee down say thank you...
OH my god...
Like Seriously...
Jumping around...
I never feel so much,
I mean so happy before...

Sorry for being long winded and dramatic...
But it's true...
It's so GREAT...
Thank you Father...THANKS ALOT ALOT...

=D





If I dont have such a stupid attitude...
Maybe things wont turned out to be like this...
If Someone in my life could teach me how to control my attitude or maybe I change it by myself before I actually meet you,
I wouldn't be like this,
I never want to be like this...
But I think what I have done is already done...
I'm felt so sorry and guilty when I think of it...
Cause My sorry doesn't seem to be working anymore...
I'm really sorry...



I will fixed my problem...
Hope you see my changes...

Hmmm, this is life...
When things are just so unexpected...

Apple...
Just thought it as a gift for asking forgiveness...

I simply take it...
And forgot what my own promise...

Anyway, Pray last night and prayer have being answered...
That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together.

I'm so having a emo rush now...
Hmmm,I will never be a great help...

My own breakwall,
Awarkard,
Weird,
Lousy,
And super LOW SELF ESTEEM now...
I have absolutely no confidence in doing anything now...

I want to write to you...
That's common i think,
without rejection,
you will never learn to grow stronger...

I'm feeling super upset now...
Cause things just got worse and worse...

I'm sorry,
AND goodbye...

我可以喜欢你吗?



Now,
it's seem to be a routine every night,
Thinking of...
You...

Maybe it's not true...
OR Maybe it will just fade away somehow...

Is me that makes you angry?
It's troubling me...=(

一直等 一个人 等了很久
这一场 独角戏 是很寂寞
春夏秋冬 我的视窗 只有风经过
爱很深 有多深 我也不懂
你走後 我的心变的脆弱
听一首歌 也觉得痛
但我谁也没有说
右边的座位 右边的枕头
都已经空了那麽久
为你守候 那是因为 我已经看透
没有你的爱
这个我只是一半
不哭了 不笑了
为谁努力我也不明白
没有人能取代
一个圆的另一半
我固执 的等待
等风再把你带回来

To me and only me:

I can't feel that I contribute anything
but just keep on watching you doing all those work...

And when you fall one day,
I will be right at your back to catch you
and bring you back up again...




Somehow this is what i can do...

Something is wrong with me,
Something is wrong with the medicine...
I'm feeling weird...
It's not me...

My Urine got blood...
HAHA pms...
How to start...
Hmmm Thursday night, my urine start to have blood,
Then the pain starts...
Then cannot sleep at night...
Body super hot...
Very uncomfortable toss and turn...
woke up in the middle of the night to pee...
Things got worse...
PAIN~ I woke up three time just to pee and nothing come out...

Next morning...
Still got blood...
SUPER PAIN~...
Went to clinic...
Urine test...
Doctor say got alot of blood in my urine...
Got white blood also...
Very unusual for a guy...
So must go hospital to check again...

Changi General Hospital
The doctor say i have to stay in the hospital to do observation,
Cause i got slight fever and then it's unusual thing for guys to have blood in their urine...

To the C ward...
No more ward for B2 and B1 so Stay at C ward...
I Feel perfectly alright,
Just that passing motion it hurts alot...

Tube given to pee in...



Blood taking...
X-ray...

In the morning, a female doctor came and check on me...
THAT'S SO EMBARRASSING...

She say I can be discharged...
Go home rest and drink more water...
Then was discharged...
But still need to do checkup...

That all...
That all...

Maybe I'm expecting too much...
I stay awake the whole night waiting...
But the message didn't came in...



Hmmm...
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED...
GO STUDY...