I dont know what is my problem today...
The moment when I'm in school,
I just felt so pissed...
DONT KNOW WHY...
maybe it's school or maybe it's me?
But i just keep quiet and i dont know what i'm angrying about...
Somehow i have a feeling from my heart that seem to be pierced by something...
Ever since last night,
I just dont understand why...
I keep telling myself to calm down but it's just dont work...
Maybe i'm having pms ba...
HAHA~
I hate this feeling...
But it's gone now...=D
Phew...

There is something that i need to change and learn
how to control myself when i'm pissed...

SAVE ME PLEASE~


JAPANESE CLASS IS SO SCREWED...
ONE DOWN~=D

A hole that I'm trying to patch up FOR WEEKS...
It's getting bigger and I'm so broke by now...




Sorry for not trying to make it happened,
Cause I just know it's no...
I dont know why but i must let go...
I dont want to be wrong...
I'm not going to fall in love,
cause I dont want to get hurted again ...

Hmmm...
Updated...
Ok this week, Do alot of computer rendering stuff...
Trying to finish the electrolux thing and Last friday was the presentation of our presentation...
Two weeks of hard work and effort was being appreciated =D
Presentation went smoothly,Just need to amend the aesthetic design...
One night just to render 10 pictures out from my laptop is counted as not bad...=D
But there is some changes of the colour scheme so end up never use my rendering Haha...

Anyway, Japanese Classes like abit cannot make it sia...
It's evening class and i'm with a girl classmate...ONLY...
Not fun as the class atmosphere it's like kinda of tight somehow...
Not fun cause I can't really pronounce well haha !

I think Morning class would be better for me...

Then let talk about love...

MAYBE I DONT EVEN KNOW LOVE...

Haha! My brain is filled with this again...
Somehow being able to walked away and stopped thinking about emo stuff life is much more better...=D
Yea Ok I'm done over with the heartbreaking stuff... =D
Recently, I'm having a feeling that I dont really know what is love...
The power of me seeking love from you just slowly dimming and fade again bit by bit...
Maybe it's just better to let it go afterall...
I dont feel anger anymore...
Just want to let you know,
I still care...=D

Love is kinda of pain...
Cause I heard stories...
Haiz...
Love is like so unpredictable...
So scary...
Say break means break...
I dont even dare to think of that kind of feeling...
Phew...
Sad ar...

I'm having a kind of weird feeling...
I'm hope i'm not in it again =D




Oh by the way,
The weeks is good for me,=D
I pray for you guys AMEN! HAHA






Life and death again...
Mum say grandaunt might...
I Pray that I...
Just not good to heard about it...

Eh,Recently my father is really looking trouble for me...
It's like seriously...
One week we can like quarrel three to four time...
Ya...
So I just ignore him when he starts to nag and scold me over small little things...
Very Irritating...
AGAIN AND AGAIN...
Haiz,
And I dont care...=D


I DONT FIND TROUBLE BUT TROUBLE FIND ME =(


And I have a very insensible brother...
Seriously I want to have my own apartment...
If you think bringing girlfriend back home and stay is a cool thing just do it without my presence...
Dont Freaking bring your girlfriend when I'm sharing the bedroom with you...
Dont you think it's a freaking weird thing?
GROW UP PLEASE...


GO AND FIND YOUR OWN APARTMENT...
AND SHIT YOU SO MUCH...
THINK ! AND LEARN TO BE MATURE!

Hmmm, I'm getting angry easily...
Is it my fault?


And I'm getting excited when school reopen
Cause my lesson going to start during the night...
Nobody is going to bother me...=D

Although I'm not in comforting people,
But I wished that I could be there to comfort you somehow...
Just pray that you'll recover and be cheerful again =D

Life is so simple when there is things to do...
And when you dont see time,
It somehow appear in some ways... Hmmm...
I think it starts to make alot of sense to me...=D
If you are not happy,
Just quarrel only,
I felt that bottle it up will just make things worse,
So I think it's better to express yourself rather than keeping them all...
And when you get so angry you burst it all out...
Hmmm Small candle flame better than Big explosion right?

Hmmm I dont know why I type this Just type for fun =D...
I dont care...
Even how sorry I am,
I felt that you dont even care at all...?
So sad but it's not going to bother me...

Redirecting my life with A BOOK!

Hmmm before I'm going to change my life again...
Haix so many things happened again...
Like school work and relationship...
ALWAYS THE Same problem...

Hmmm but recently It's really really demoralising...
Especially on the Electrolux presentation that day,
Everyone were like so prepared and we only have one concept...
Haiz...
Then Their work was like so nice and good can...
But they are taking degree so it's really beyond our level...
But still I feel kinda of lousy...
I feel like giving up when my result and this electrolux things make me feel so worthless...
Especially the result...
I understand what went wrong but still I just can't get over it...
I'm so serious about my work...
I'm so serious about the work I'm doing...

But I got this shit result...

Hmmm when my friends mention about result,
it just make me feel so lousy...
Haha...
Heart ache~~ very pain...
Four years of my hardwork, and three years of passion of being a product designer
And I got defeated by my own result and my own failure...

I Give up at that time...
I feel so lost again and again...
Trying to find a purpose of carrying on this passion that I have...
My passion was like a candle that has flame on it...
Everytime, when the wind come,
Failure blows my flame away,
But I keep lighting them up because I dont want to give up...
But the wind just keep on coming,
And now I'm so tired to light up that candle...



The Candle will not light up without me =D

Then After complaining to Jamie...

Anyway...
The whole day Doing chores,
Vaccum and Mopping the floor...
Arms hurts alot after training...
After all those hard work chorse,thought of enjoying A NBA 2001 Game 2 match...
THEN THINGS HAPPENED...
ONE COCKROACH APPEARED...
AND THE BATTLE BEGINS...

A great battle with the COCKROACHES !
Imagine Different Sizes of Cockroach Keep Climbing out of the Rubbish bin...
SIAN!
HOW TO CATCH!?
ALOT OF COCKROACHES,
HERE AND THERE...

THEN I FOUND MY BROOM! HAHAHA
I open the Sewage cover and sweep all the COCKROACHES IN...
LUCKY THEY CANNOT FLY !
OR I WILL DIE!

GO AND DIE STUPID COCKROACHES!

Hmmm everyone is Getting the heat of chasing up...
I'm still kinda of blur and don't know what is going on...?
My Dream Kinda of being shaken...
I'm tired...
Really tired Out...
But,
I Feel so Comfortable enjoying these HOLIDAY...
But NO money,
SO Cannot go out,
Struck at home =D

A Short story:

A Guy went to ask a Girl out for a dinner...

Then the Girl say to the Guy:
I Just don't understand,You keep asking me out and I keep telling you No
Why do you keep on trying?

Then The guy replied:
I dont know, I Feel like If I keep asking,
maybe one of this day you would say Yes..


Hmmm Would you be touched?
Would you say Yes?








Just trying to decieve myself...
But it won't work...