STILL... a NO...

Today Which was yesterday, Kinda of expect things to happen...
Haha...
In the morning ,I Can already sense it coming...
Hmmm...
Maybe it was Sunday night Prayer that I made and today my prayer was answered...
I need the truth...
Though the truth hurts more than I except,
But still,
I need to know...
( Aiya, You tell me who won't not be sad? When you like that someone so much, Then it's like Haiz.. )
It's like Kinda of expected...
Just don't know how things work but I'm not in the mood throughout the whole day...
I thought It was just tiredness...

Aiya,
I thought I can wait while doing my work,
Then After my work is done,
Then I do the right thing,
Which is my third year...
I'm good at waiting... =)
But it's already a No =/
Not even a chance ...

Just Kill all the hope and the dream I have For this special Planned Third year... =(
Disappointment AFTER Disappointment...
Work and relationship...
BIG JOKE Can...

I have this thinking of...
Things won't work out when you tried so hard,
But when you don't try so hard,
The things work out so well...
HAHA...
Like Cheat my feeling can...?
ALWAYS LIKE THIS...

But also learn a Lesson...
If you want to like right,
You like all the way...
Haiz...

BUT!
Just jia you
And Do live well...
I'll back off...

If you need me,
I'll be here...

Jia You Angel...




Anyway Prayer is being Answered...
Let's get going...

I sense his presence and it's like getting closer...
Is the kingdom coming soon for me...?
Until that one day I have to face you, I wonder what was the first question you will asked me...?
I just wonder...
But I know my answer will be:
I'm Sorry, It's just Temptation that I don't even have any resistance against it?
It's just lie...
I have a choice afterall...

I feel kinda of slow and lost...
When the Time Fade away so fast...
I just realised that it been another week,
Another day was gone...
What Have I been doing...?
Project after project...
It's seem like I don't have life...
People start Disappearing in my life when I just realised it...

Some walked away,
Some just Disappear,
I Don't have any Fighting spirit to just bring them back...
Afterall, I'm the one who make them walk away...
I Didn't Give up...
I just keep trying...
But it's kinda of tired when your effort just don't get them back...

Did I miss my chances when I'm supposed to do something that time...
Now I guess you have change your Perspective on me...

I'm quiet now,
Just don't wanna make alot of noise...


I feel so much, But I just couldn't express it out...
I'm Feeling weird...

Ok I'm good After this Stupid post I post...
I'm not going to fall like this or say this word give up...
Everyone face obstacle and they fall too...
SO I've fallen but I'm picking myself up...
It's really normal to be upset when you do something with alot of effort and you put your heart in and PEOPLE just dont appreciate what you do...

When this happen,
I just realise the only thing you can do is just have your own quiet time and just shut yourself up... After that period, Carry on and push yourself...
Not going to stop...
JIA YOU!=/
AND JUST WATCH ME!...

Many things in two months...

OK many things in this two months...
I never meet up with my brothers,
I never go for cell group,
I never go out or enjoy myself even when I'm so freaking stress up with my work...
I never play bball ever since this module start...
I never do this I never do that...=)
Ya...
Hard work...
Effort...
I always Believe this Hard work thing,
AND I Believe in EFFORT...
And I just do...
Do and do and do and do...
DO DO DO DO DRAW DRAW DRAW DRAW DRAW AND DRAW...
CUT AND PASTE.... CLICK HERE CLICK THERE...
JUST TO GET THIS PROJECT DONE =)
I SPENT MONEY LIKE DRINKING WATER...
MUM is very supportive she give me cash when I need it...
TO BUY SPRAY PAINT...
SAND PAPER...
LIGHT Sensing circuit...
BATTERIES...=)

Thanks alot mum...=)

BROTHER, I MAKE IT...!!!
In three weeks and two days I COMPLETE MY MODEL...

I HAVE A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE TO TELL YOU ALL ABOUT THIS...
I MAKE IT...

Ya ....
=)

Well, I make it...
It's really better than my dinosaur kettle...
Should I be proud or just feel Stupid for making something that doesn't not even impress any lecturers ?

Well, the truth is I dont think the lecturer doesn't even like it...
Not being acknowledge...
Not being acknowlegde...

Ya I'm not...
I'm upset...

I put in hard work...
I put in Effort...

I seem to be a BIG FOOL for this two months...
This is what they say... Why so simple... I can buy it at anywhere....
So I REDESIGN, REFINE it...
HOURS AND HOURS OF SKETCHES... Just to get the concept approved...

Like a stupid dumb...
After I saw my classmate work,
BEST! SIMPLE AND NICE!=)
Seriously, it's nice...
And I"M STUPID...
I MAKE SO MANY THINGS... AND GET THINGS SO COMPLICATED....
AND END UP I GET THE GRADE WAS LIKE WAH!
I dont know what Grade I get But more or less is a C or D ba...

YOu know How I FEEL?
I FEEL LIKE SHIT...
A BIG BIG BIG SHIT!

I JUST WANTED TO HAVE THE COURAGE TO JUST USE MY STRENGTH AND BREAK THOSE SHIT THAT I MAKE...
YOU KNOW HOW SAD I AM NOW...
AND WHY AM I BLOODY STUPID...???

HAHA STUPID RIGHT...
NAMED ME LOSER...OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL ME...
LABEL ME CONDEMN ME... ANYTHING =)...

Ya...
Dont tag some comfort words on my tagbox...
I DONT WANT....
JUST dont...
It's make me feel so pathetic...
To Zy if you want to say me or anything just keep it to yourself ba...
All I want is just to post this with no comment...