I'm not sure what she was thinking...
And I'm not sure what am I feeling now...
She was being Paranoia ( think too much)...
Ya, I know...

It's make me paranoia that she was paranoia...
I'm sorry...
It just make me feel scare...

And it's like I'm the one causing such awarkard feeling to her...



Should I even confess at the first place?
When the things that I predicted will actually happened?
I supposed it's just the end of the story...
Things are not going anywhere...
Not going anywhere...
I just dont like the feeling...
I keep asking myself the same old question, over and over again...

Should I just give up ?
I ask around, But no one give me an answer...
Some say Give up,
Some say It how your hearts feels then you do what your heart says...
Then I asked my heart...
My Heart say I like her...
But how much?
I dont know...
How would I know?
Can it be measure?


Then my Brain came into the pictures...
Saying, Things are not going anywhere wasn't it...?
What the point of holding on ?
I'm not getting any conculsion,
But it's making me confused,
It's making me tired...




I seem to be holding on to something that does not belonging to me at all...

She was like A complete stranger to me now...
I don't know how I can start talking to her...
I dont know what I can talk about...
Dont ask me to talk about work...
It's just so boring to talk about work...


I can find alot of topic to talk about,
But I guess she will just think that I'm trying to get close to her...

Ya I want to,
But I seem to be having the wrong Intention?
Be friend first then go on to something else...

If she read this,
I Confirm she will avoid me for the rest of my life...
HAHAHA=(

I Can fight for you =)
I Can be really really sweet to you =)
I Can be just the right person =)
But how I can I do all this when you are not even there...? =(
It's just like brenda...=(


Friend around me just keep helping me on this...
Whether does it work or does it help,
It don't really matter...
I just want to thanks them even they dont know about this blog...
there Nothing more I could say to you guys but thank you...

Thanks...

I have lunch with Jp on wednesday and have a chat with her...

There is so much that I wanted to ask her but I just keep on listening to what she was saying...

It's just make me feel so much...

What am i thinking?

It's like I'm having the feeling back for her...
What am i thinking?
When I'm struggling with the relationship problems, She(Jp) just came in to my picture...

Now every night I keep thinking of Jp, and I keep comparing...

I dont want to be like my brother...

I'm scare...
Am I being flirt or something?

It make me feel so weird...

What is the purpose behind this?
Just to let me know that I dont really like you that much?
No,

It's the way that things are now that makes me feel this way...

Empty,

I tried too hard,

It's already torn apart,

The timing Is Fading my heart

I just went Empty
Ohhhh....

Ohhhh....

=(

I forgive you,

But who forgive me?