I think I'm wrong...
Things are like this right?
When I don't see her,
I don't feel so much...
When She's around,
I'm not me...

When,
I'm all Alone just by myself,
Did I think of you?

It's going to rain tonight,
Keep yourself warm...

With The umbrella...=/
Sigh...
Just another part of my memories...=)

I'm not sure what she was thinking...
And I'm not sure what am I feeling now...
She was being Paranoia ( think too much)...
Ya, I know...

It's make me paranoia that she was paranoia...
I'm sorry...
It just make me feel scare...

And it's like I'm the one causing such awarkard feeling to her...



Should I even confess at the first place?
When the things that I predicted will actually happened?
I supposed it's just the end of the story...
Things are not going anywhere...
Not going anywhere...
I just dont like the feeling...
I keep asking myself the same old question, over and over again...

Should I just give up ?
I ask around, But no one give me an answer...
Some say Give up,
Some say It how your hearts feels then you do what your heart says...
Then I asked my heart...
My Heart say I like her...
But how much?
I dont know...
How would I know?
Can it be measure?


Then my Brain came into the pictures...
Saying, Things are not going anywhere wasn't it...?
What the point of holding on ?
I'm not getting any conculsion,
But it's making me confused,
It's making me tired...




I seem to be holding on to something that does not belonging to me at all...

She was like A complete stranger to me now...
I don't know how I can start talking to her...
I dont know what I can talk about...
Dont ask me to talk about work...
It's just so boring to talk about work...


I can find alot of topic to talk about,
But I guess she will just think that I'm trying to get close to her...

Ya I want to,
But I seem to be having the wrong Intention?
Be friend first then go on to something else...

If she read this,
I Confirm she will avoid me for the rest of my life...
HAHAHA=(

I Can fight for you =)
I Can be really really sweet to you =)
I Can be just the right person =)
But how I can I do all this when you are not even there...? =(
It's just like brenda...=(


Friend around me just keep helping me on this...
Whether does it work or does it help,
It don't really matter...
I just want to thanks them even they dont know about this blog...
there Nothing more I could say to you guys but thank you...

Thanks...

I have lunch with Jp on wednesday and have a chat with her...

There is so much that I wanted to ask her but I just keep on listening to what she was saying...

It's just make me feel so much...

What am i thinking?

It's like I'm having the feeling back for her...
What am i thinking?
When I'm struggling with the relationship problems, She(Jp) just came in to my picture...

Now every night I keep thinking of Jp, and I keep comparing...

I dont want to be like my brother...

I'm scare...
Am I being flirt or something?

It make me feel so weird...

What is the purpose behind this?
Just to let me know that I dont really like you that much?
No,

It's the way that things are now that makes me feel this way...

Empty,

I tried too hard,

It's already torn apart,

The timing Is Fading my heart

I just went Empty
Ohhhh....

Ohhhh....

=(

I forgive you,

But who forgive me?

Help me change the skin ANYONE!...
I WANT A HAPPY BACKGROUND!...
Can i design my own background and be my background skin?
Life like this...

If you really care,
you put something here for me to see...
If you don't,
Please dont read ...

When I saw her cry...
The only thing i could do now was to sit down and just look...=(
I'm tired as in Sleepy =S

I'm so sorry but I love you...
I'm Going to stop dwelling,
It's making me more miserable than usual...

LIES!

Eh...
Having a mind which is not really clear of what it was doing...
I'm just feel so lost now...
Blank...
Feeling stupid...
Dumb as usual...
I dont know...
What am I thinking?
Thinking of I love you...
I'm just getting random...
Feeling bitter?
What going on?
I miss you...
Just want to start a normal conversation...
Like, Hello =) with a smile! really...