Today was weird...

Today!
It's really Very boring...
Feeling empty after waking up late...
After 1 hour of the lesson gone, I went into the class...
Poly is good as the lecturers don't really care about you being late...
Anyway, I'm felt sorry about that...
I felt lost somehow cause I miss almost everything in the lesson...
When I'm on the bus,
I just wished that my Handphone would ring ...
A message or even a missed call from you?
=/ Somehow it just didn't happen...
Will that day come again?

During the groupwork,
I can't focus much on the work,

Maybe I'm really tired of looking through documents about circuit and many many things...

It's all about work...

But afterall we finish the work...

Nah, I'm not giving up even if it's really tiring on work...
I just need a good rest on the weekend to get back those energy...

I enjoy your presences When you were around,
But when you were not around,
It seem that there is something missing there...

I need to get used of that feeling...

It's like you were there but you were not...

Come to my dream tonight,
I have alot things to tell you...

I chose my path...

Your glaze just make me feel that you hate me...

It's like we were stranger when the day I knew the truth...

Those eyes...

Dissappointment...

你真的这么恨我？

God open those doorways to let me choose which paths I wanna go...

I chose to love you...

I stand firm and look at the pathway of loving you...
It's difficult,

It's hard,

But This is what I want to do...

I want to Love you...
I Chose to love you...

But my efforts,

Just won't make you fall for me...

Rejection was the choice that you have made...

Now again,

I have a choice to make...
Give it up or carry on?

Will your answer change?
Is there hope over this?

It has been for 7 weeks...

He just went off...

Today, I have a message in the morning...
It was 7.45am when I recieved that message...
Raymond brother simon have just passed away...
I was stunned,
Speechless...
He was going to have his N level this year,
He was so young...
But he was gone today...

I felt so sad,
Although I don't really talk to him...
I felt for Raymond and his mother...
Man, this is really heartbreaking...
Looking into people blogs, What is going on??

It seem to tell me that I should cherish people in my life...
I'm Freaking don't know what is going on....!!!!!
Leave me alone...

I'm feeling miserable,
SAD,
AND HELPLESS...
AND ABSOLUTELY DUMB AND STUPID
How Pathetic ?

How I wish I can just shut myself off from this world you see...
I wish that I wouldn't know you...
Not ever thinking of being that someone...
How I wish I could do something to stop this stupid miserable heart aching thing to stop...
How I wish helplessly that time can bring me out of this mess...
Best is not to know...
And the best is to bang the wall and Forget everything...
Ya,I'm running away...

And I'm really dissappointed of you...
Do you know how to understand how people feel?
I can always be the one who always cared for you,
I know i can do it,
I never ever stop,
Cause you are my friend and i want to care for you...
You might have your problems that you are facing,
But LET ME TELL YOU THIS,
I have my problems too,
Not just you...

Do something , will you...?

I want to save you,
But do you want to save yourself first...?
Answer that to yourself...
Changes make a difference...
It MAKES A DIFFERENCE...

If you change to a positive attitude,
People will talk to you...
Be happy!!!
What the point of being so gloomy and keep on complaining?
I dont see a point there?
What you get back?
Nothing but hatred all over...
Then you start complaining again...

Now what you been doing?
Look at yourself...
While I am looking at mine and doing reflection on my own...

If I don't treat you as friend,
I won't ever bother to post this post...

I have lost many things in life,
And I guess I have lost two important thing again...

Completely lost of faith,
And still taking damage...
I won't bring myself to make you people sad...

Happened again...

When my feeling starts to grow for you,
I know what was the outcome...
I always thought to myself,
When You never try you never know...
So I tried...
I guess this sentence was referring to Work,
But it's does not apply on relationship...

Arrhh...
Stupid Right?

I always hope I can use my sincerity to show you how much you mean to me...
Always trying to be that someone special in your life...
Always trying to be the best I can...

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know...
But it's seem to be a mark of the end...

Knowing the truth makes me learn in a hard way,
That I can't handle the truth even if I have already predicted it to happen...
I can't take it...
I'm feeling bad now...
Feeling damaged...
Heartaching sorrow...
There's nothing left for me to take along and no matter what I do I can't make you feel that way...
Perharps the pain will just heal itself when time goes by...

It's not how sincere you are,
But is how she feel about you...
Feeling...=(
I guess you won't changed that feeling or maybe it's really hard to go beyond more than just a friend...
I accept it...
A relationship without love...
What's the point...?

Why things changed so sudden??

I guess I have loss a friend and a person that I think she was right for me...

People changed,

And I guess I can't accept that to happen...

I DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN...

I'm dissappointed and that's serious...

Just wanna be that someone special,

And they make my heart weaken...

It's really stupid trying ways to know what is going around them...

When you keep asking, "HEY! Are you okay?You seem to be bothered?"

Hey friend that I lost,

I wanna say I'm always around with you...

STOP REJECTING ME TO COME NEARER!



Right for me,

I don't know what is really going in your life,

I WANT TO KNOW...

WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?

WHY YOU CHANGE?

WHY YOU MADE THAT CHOICES?

I'M FEELING SO MESSED UP...

How I wish I was dumb...

I'm heartbroken...



What the purpose?

To show me that I can't accept changes?

To show me that I should carried on to bring them back and not give up?

To show me that I'm prone to failure?

To show me that I can't helped being sad?

To show me that I'm not trying harder?



I'm really losing the faith in love,

It's all lies,

It's all faked...



Hope I really wish that you are here beside me...

Show me the way,

I'm lost... Be my light...

I wished to help,

But now,

I couldn't help myself...