It's about the heart...

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud.

It is not rude,

it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres.

Love never fails.

— I Corinthians 13:4-8a (NIV)

It's from the bible,

No doubt...

I got this from the internet...

Errmmmm....

Now I see what the different between my definition of Love and the definition of God love...

WAH PIANG!!!

So much different...

Love is patient, ( I always get impatience )

love is kind.

It does not envy,
it does not boast,

it is not proud.
It is not rude, ( I guess I'm rude for Be emotionally affected)
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, ( BIGGEST WEAKNESS )
it keeps no record of wrongs. ( Eh, I only blame myself )
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, ( I have this qualities But still can improve on it...)
always trusts, ( Trusts, Eh I'm Confused myself...)
always hopes, ( I don't see any hope cause I can't Get any Closer to you...) =(
always perseveres. ( I rather walk away instead of solving the problem between this relationship that I wanted )
Love never fails. ( My love Failed)

Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love.

I think my love went so wrong...

I need a deeper Reflection of what is going on...

What is really going on?

Why Am I not facing you when I loved you ?

Or am even I in love with you?

Loving a person is supposed to be a very pleasant feeling...

It's supposed to be passionate...

Why do i have so many problem when I'm facing you...

Fearing...

Fearing of REJECTION!?

Ya that's the answer!

I just Learnt alot from a single verse like this...

COOL!

I'M GROWING ...=)

I need to overcame my fear Afterall...

My love is seeking for your heart,

Not for the outward appearance...

The kind and caring heart,

I'm seeking it from you...

I'm still learning...

And This love chapter is one of the challenging topic ever...

Reflection on the past...

Many things happened in this two busy month...
Seem that I was the last one who know what's really going on in my own clique...
But my brother and sister seem to be quite understanding for not meeting up...=)
Thank you...
I LOVE TO BOND WITH THEM...
SO FUN! Share Our problems and have many kind of different opinion from each other...
It's really great!


But back to the reality, We still have to settle our problem after all...
Many things changed in this two months,
I think my result is going screwed up thanks to my model,
I'm lacking of patience to make them...
No time...
Three of these models is really cannot make it...
I decided to change the next semster...
I'm not going take things easy,
I want my result to maintain,
I dont want to dissappoint my parents,
Afterall, I had never been a filial child to them...
Result is the only thing that I can give to them...

Studies Will be my first Priority For now,
As for relationship I will continue to work on it...
But I won't be putting much effort in it,
I know that If I don't do something about my communciation problem with you,
I think it's impossible to get any further with you...
But How?
It's quite Tough to make those steps...
I felt so different when you are around...
Is this what you called "LOVE"??
You say I couldn't control my emotion...
When Something Happened,
My emotion Will get affected...
Ya that's true,
I know I couldn't control my emotion well,
But I have been trying to control it...
So I just kept my silent...
I thought it'll be better,
But you don't like it at all...

How do you want me to express it?
Tell me please?=)
I'm willing to change...
I'm serious with my words...

I wanted to share with you about my problem too,
But whenever I wanted to tell you about it,
I just don't know how to start?
I'm still not close enough with you that's for sure...
But I have been trying hard too,
To make that effort,
But often I got dissappointment with your cold respond...

It's looked like I have never Been in your picture frame before...
Somehow like a passer-by...
Help out and go...
When I type this,
It just leave me with a crack in my heart...

But still I will changed to the better no matter what,
And Make things better,
Cause that the only two things I can do now...
I will be holding onto the torch and waiting to shine up your life when the lights went off...
I'll be waiting...


Here A song For you:
Your Call...

Waiting for your,
Call I'm sick, Call I'm angry,
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to singIn the car,
do you rememberButterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished,
I am new,
I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious,
you and me,
flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone,
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home[4X]
I was born to tell you
I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I know what you want to say ,
So just save it...
Dont Say it,
I dont want to know...
Cause I understand how you feel now...

Felt stupid again...

Things wont work out...

Eyes to see,

Ears to hear,

But with mouth,

that don't express my heart,

Mouth that dont express my mind,

Mind that cannot be explained...

It's like a jailed bird...

I just keep them in my heart...

Things I want to say to you...

Things that you told me,

Just Broke me into pieces...

All along you keep thinking that you were indebted to me...

But I'm the one who was the one who is indebted to you...

Get it?

I feel like smashing my whole head against the wall...

We always have misunderstanding I Guess?

How I wished, I can tell you How I FEEL...!

I hope i can be Expressive...

KEN say

"If a relationship can be broken that easily, then it's not called a relationship..."

Jason say

" DO you want to remain the same level when others are trying to get to another higher level?"

If I dont work it out, then it will get worse...

Messed up in relationship,

Always!

Each step closer...

Closer means good? or bad?
I smell trouble...
And I think I'm really going to have the same ending...
Please help me out !
If it's not working, bring me away...


I dont want to feel pain...


If it's not then dont make me fall for her...


Oh man...


I'm scared again...


It's gonna hurt...=(






















Father Please bring me Home...




Am I going through some test now?
I'm slowly changing but I need time,
I'm not ready for any test yet...
But Time is short and I'm still weak...
Everyday those test keep on coming...

Hatred, sorrow, sadness and anger...
Temptation...
They never stop coming...
I go with peace but they keep on coming...
I will keep up,
But it's really just too much...
I'm not saint...

A broken friendship,
Was all my doing,
It's was my fault afterall,
I shouldn't leave you alone...
Blame me if you want too,
Cause i'm seeking for your forgiveness...

I'm sorry...


MEND MEND MEND MEND MEND...

CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL...


I don't want to give up on you...

You were always in the highest...
Watch over me ...

Alot of things!

My knife

The picture might look good, but the real thing is really cannot make it...

Sorry for not meeting up cause I can't make time for you guys...

Now i'm having kettle project so will be quite busy too...

So sorry k... Next month I meet you all for sure...

WO HAO XIANG NI MEN!!!

MOVIE KBOX CYCLE BBALL SWIMMING SENTOSA!!!!!!

I see the King of Glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His Love and MercyWashing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
CHORUS:Hosanna, Hosanna,Hosanna in the highest
Hosanna, Hosanna,
Hosanna in the highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's Cause
As I walk from earth into eternity...

Tell me how?

Many things happened and I have alot to say...

Why this happened? Why it happened...?

I came to realised I'm kinda of Lost...

I'm going to be 19 this year...

I'm Feeling so old...

I'm feeling weird today...

It's hard to explain...

I feel like running away... =(

Sometime, I feel that you were with me...

But sometime you seem to walk away from me...

I need you! I really do...

I need your help,

I need your hope,

I NEED YOU! GOD!!! WHERE ARE YOU?!=(



I'm feeling scared again...

害怕



If one day things happened...

If one day my family went off,

If one day my brothers were gone,

If one day she leaves,

If one day my friends disappeared,

If people around me walk away from me...

I just feel so scare...

I'm feeling insecure...

Father, where are you?

I know I'm blessed...

To be able to have eyes to see,

Have ears to heard,

Have mouth to speak...

Family and friends who care...



I hope I'll be better tomorrow...

I'm feeling weak and tired...

Make me simple minded...

Forgive me...

I'm just feeling useless...

You know how I feel...

I NEED YOU!

Dont take things away...

DONT TAKE THEM AWAY...

I LOVE THEM...

PLEASE !!!
Wo hen 害怕...