I would like to talk about a year of disconnection and it could ruined a three years friendship.
That is how damaging and deadly it is.
I have friends who used to be very closed to me and now we became complete strangers.
Well, I'm not surprised but I feel rather disappointed.
When we meet up, we hardly had anything much to say.
I asked myself this funny question, is it because both of us are attached and in the presence of our partners, it seem that we both have this invisible barrier that pretend us from having a simple conversation?
Their blog was closed and probably they might had shifted to use tumblr in expressing their thoughts. I feel disconnected but there is nothing much that I could do. So I guess I had been officially shut off from her world.
Such a pity.
Other thing that I came to realised was that the person you used to love, you didn't really get close to her even after you have given up on her. The funny fact is that you get closer to her friend instead. Weird.
Anyway, adulthood just tied me down with more responsibilities and with the army officer's rank on my chest, everyone is treating me differently. Most of it were rather bad. Hahaha, anyway I just took their comments and take it as pointers in improving myself.
After I became an army officer, most of friends have more expectation on me, more hostile and direct towards me. It made me speechless and sometimes, I wished I could have the courage to just stop them from going further.
I guess they have no clues about what I am doing.
Apparently, sometimes at a certain point, we were so fixated by the things ahead of us, and we simply forgot about the reasons why we were doing it at the first place. My point here is to learn to check back and don't be so fixated with the things ahead of us. Take time to process it and you will have a better learning journey in pursuing whatever is ahead of you.
